felt something wasn't right in the morning. uncle called and said grandpa had some difficulties breathing. but i still proceed on to school. think it was a wrong choice made. jst mins into commskills, dad called and said grandpa had passed on.
cabbed down to sgh, stayed on to accompany dad and uncles to have all the procedures done. went to the casket thingy and all.. then back to grandpa's hse to wait for his body.
i promised myself not to cry. and i didn't. cause if u were to die, would you want to see your loved ones cry and cry and cry? it wasn't at all surprising that grandpa had passed on. doctors have alrdy told us to be prepared for the worst, so noone actually really cried. by the end of the day, we were all smiles.
grandpa would be happy to see us in this way. its not that we're not sad. the fact is that we don't want to be sad. we're glad that grandpa had moved on to a new journey, it hurts to see him lying in the hospital bed, suffering and not responding and you can't do anything.
strict disciplinarian he is, or to some, its called stubborn. noone has ever said a single vulgarity in front of him. everything he said was right. so we jst do what he wants us to do. it may be irritating and frustrating at times.. but now we wont get to hear all those anymore. regretted not going hospital to visit him ytd night. lessons till 5. was tired so didnt want to go down. and now, he's gone.
you will only learn to cherish after youve lost it. i think i fully understand the sentence now.
so, for the next six days, i have something on. hope i can find time to study. for you ppl reading till the end of my entry, dont ask if im okay. im alright! ciao.
